This is where I'd like to stay,
Where the river is peaceful - like today.
The Sun shines brightly upon my face.
And I long to see you - feel your embrace.
Like the river, I'm very confused,
I keep wondering if I'll win or lose.
Not really knowing which direction to go,
I wait for my answer - it's coming, but slow.
I'll be like the Wind, I'll try to stay calm,
And not lose my vision in the midst of it all.
I'll seek guidance from God - He understands,
He's looking downward with loving hands.
The trees are blowing - so is my mind,
Is this the right kind of love - I'm asking all the time.
I'll have faith in God, He knows what's best,
He knows what I need in the midst of this mess.
Still the Sun shines brightly upon my face,
And I long to see you - feel your embrace.
Crystal Murphy
9 May 1973
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Insanity
This was written at a park in Indiana. We lived there my Senior year of high school. I used to go down by the river and meditate. I had begun to have feelings for another boy in school and I was torn apart inside. Hence:
Insanity
It seems to me
after all this time,
I'd know what to do,
I'd have peace of mind.
Yet day after day
I'm more confused,
Seems there's a power
that won't let loose.
This power within
I can't explain,
I know that slowly
I'm going insane.
I know I'm unworthy
of the love you give,
And I find myself
not wanting to live.
Then I think of how
I'd be hurting you,
If I took away our love
that tenderly grew.
Crystal Murphy
April 1973
How Many Times?
How many times, have we thought
it was goodbye?
How many times has my Heart
seemed to cry?
How many moments were
tenderly spent?
How many times did we wonder
where they went?
How many trials have we been
through together?
How many were conquered even
through stormy weather?
How many years have
we been in love?
How many times did we need
strength from above?
How many more years are we
looking forward to?
How many more years will
our love stay true?
After all we've been through --
How many more years?
My whole lifetime with you!
Crystal Murphy
20 February 1973
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Snow
The snow reminds me of my love for you,
So fresh and lovely like the things you do.
Beautiful flakes, oh how gently they fall,
And I love to watch them as our past I recall.
Lovely white snow, so pure and so clean,
Reminds me of your love I so desperately need.
To watch it as it covers the ground,
I remember the love that one day I found.
Yet unlike snow that soon melts away,
Our undying love is here to stay!
Crystal Murphy
22 November 1972
So fresh and lovely like the things you do.
Beautiful flakes, oh how gently they fall,
And I love to watch them as our past I recall.
Lovely white snow, so pure and so clean,
Reminds me of your love I so desperately need.
To watch it as it covers the ground,
I remember the love that one day I found.
Yet unlike snow that soon melts away,
Our undying love is here to stay!
Crystal Murphy
22 November 1972
SANDCASTLES
In 1972, I was a Junior in high school. I watched a television movie called "Sandcastles". I was so inspired, I wrote the following:
Sandcastles
I want to share
my Sandcastles with you.
Aren't they beautiful,
so real and true?
There - through the darkness,
see the burning light?
Shining through the windows
on this damp night.
There's a girl and a boy
so deeply in love,
Standing there silently
looking above.
Yes, my Sandcastles can
be washed away,
By the rain that comes
on lonesome days.
Then they appear again
just like before,
When you come and knock
upon the door.
The door that opens my
memory . . .
Of the Sandcastles built
for you and me!
Crystal Murphy
12 October 1972
Thank You
Twenty-four months we've shared our love,
Each day it was wonderfully growing.
Twenty-four months of joy from above,
The best part of all was just knowing.
Knowing that you really did care,
and wanted to be a part of my life.
That you didn't mind at all to share,
All the sorrow, trouble and strife.
Then there were those happy times,
When nothing else seemed to matter.
Since then my love has grown and grown,
And you make up my very being.
Twenty-four months and I've always known,
Your love is all I'd be needing.
Honey, you mean everything to me,
So I want to thank you for your care.
Also for these months so sweet,
And for our lifetime we have to share.
Crystal Murphy
11 October 1972
Each day it was wonderfully growing.
Twenty-four months of joy from above,
The best part of all was just knowing.
Knowing that you really did care,
and wanted to be a part of my life.
That you didn't mind at all to share,
All the sorrow, trouble and strife.
Then there were those happy times,
When nothing else seemed to matter.
Since then my love has grown and grown,
And you make up my very being.
Twenty-four months and I've always known,
Your love is all I'd be needing.
Honey, you mean everything to me,
So I want to thank you for your care.
Also for these months so sweet,
And for our lifetime we have to share.
Crystal Murphy
11 October 1972
My Love
How can something so strong, be described?
The expression of my love, I cannot find.
It comes sometimes like a mighty Sea.
It's powerful waves completely cover me.
Other times I find it comes as the Wind.
Afterwards I have to put things together again.
Often it comes as a kitten's soft feel,
creeping upon me quietly.
Sometimes I feel as though I can fly.
My love for you is like a bird in the Sky.
At times my love captures my mind,
then goes on it's way, leaving me behind.
Sometimes my love is like a child and a toy.
I have to be careful, I can't have every joy.
So many times have I tried to express,
the love that gives me happiness.
And every time I always find -
a feeling so strong can't be described.
Crystal Murphy
6 August 1972
The expression of my love, I cannot find.
It comes sometimes like a mighty Sea.
It's powerful waves completely cover me.
Other times I find it comes as the Wind.
Afterwards I have to put things together again.
Often it comes as a kitten's soft feel,
creeping upon me quietly.
Sometimes I feel as though I can fly.
My love for you is like a bird in the Sky.
At times my love captures my mind,
then goes on it's way, leaving me behind.
Sometimes my love is like a child and a toy.
I have to be careful, I can't have every joy.
So many times have I tried to express,
the love that gives me happiness.
And every time I always find -
a feeling so strong can't be described.
Crystal Murphy
6 August 1972
Nothing Unusual
This morning when I awoke, I thought of you.
It's nothing unusual, 'cause I always do.
Now the whole day through, you'll be on my mind.
It's nothing unusual, it happens all the time.
I'll hope and pray that you'll come by.
Then before too long, I'll begin to cry.
I'll remember how things used to be.
When we were together, just you and me.
Now everywhere I go, I'll have memories there,
But it's nothing unusual, 'cause I still care.
When the day's almost to it's end,
I'll wonder how many places you've been.
Then I"ll wonder if you thought of me today,
Or if any precious memories came your way.
I'll go to bed, and I'll think of you.
It's nothing unusual, I always do.
I'll lay awake most of the night,
And try to figure out what's wrong or right.
I'll think of how I'm in love with you,
It's nothing unusual . . .
Crystal Murphy
11 July 1972
It's nothing unusual, 'cause I always do.
Now the whole day through, you'll be on my mind.
It's nothing unusual, it happens all the time.
I'll hope and pray that you'll come by.
Then before too long, I'll begin to cry.
I'll remember how things used to be.
When we were together, just you and me.
Now everywhere I go, I'll have memories there,
But it's nothing unusual, 'cause I still care.
When the day's almost to it's end,
I'll wonder how many places you've been.
Then I"ll wonder if you thought of me today,
Or if any precious memories came your way.
I'll go to bed, and I'll think of you.
It's nothing unusual, I always do.
I'll lay awake most of the night,
And try to figure out what's wrong or right.
I'll think of how I'm in love with you,
It's nothing unusual . . .
Crystal Murphy
11 July 1972
(Untitled)
As I lay awake each night alone,
My thoughts are all of you.
My mind always seems to roam,
Over the things we used to do.
Things that were so silly then,
Seem so precious now.
As I think of you time and again,
I often wonder how?
How we could drift apart,
When our love was so real and true.
And these feelings closed up in my Heart,
Keep me thinking only of you.
My mind takes me back to places we went,
And moments we tenderly shared.
I remember you enjoyed the times we spent,
And you showed you really cared.
Now that it's over, the aching goes on,
and Honey I want you to know -
You walked out of my life, now you're gone,
But I'll love you, wherever you go.
Crystal Murphy
10 July 1972
My thoughts are all of you.
My mind always seems to roam,
Over the things we used to do.
Things that were so silly then,
Seem so precious now.
As I think of you time and again,
I often wonder how?
How we could drift apart,
When our love was so real and true.
And these feelings closed up in my Heart,
Keep me thinking only of you.
My mind takes me back to places we went,
And moments we tenderly shared.
I remember you enjoyed the times we spent,
And you showed you really cared.
Now that it's over, the aching goes on,
and Honey I want you to know -
You walked out of my life, now you're gone,
But I'll love you, wherever you go.
Crystal Murphy
10 July 1972
Jumping in here . . .
Okay, I need to jump in just a second. I fell in love with my best-friend's boyfriend. Yeah. It sounds awful, but with all the truth inside my Soul, I can honestly say it was unexpected as well as unintentional. My best friend and I parted ways. She was wonderful. She continued to be civil to me, but she was hurt.
Hind sight is 20/20.
Hence the beginning of my bad reputation:
Hind sight is 20/20.
Hence the beginning of my bad reputation:
- No, I wasn't a slut. Back then, I don't know what they called it, but it was the same meaning.
- No, I wasn't a boyfriend stealer. Actually, he was as guilty as me. However, as the whole world knows, it doesn't matter what the guy does - it only matters what the girl does. The girl is always the bad guy.
- Yes, I was a virgin when we married. So was he.
Okay, this ranting is over. I'll jump in again as so inspired to do so. =o)
(Untitled)
Is your love growing cold,
Or is it mine?
Is the feeling getting old,
After all this time?
Why does it seem you,
Don't want to try?
Why does it seem,
Our love's gonna die?
You're just waiting for
a certain time,
To shut my door,
Out of your life.
It seems all you want
is to have some fun,
I'm just hanging on
having none.
Of course Sweetheart,
I love to be with you . . .
But when we're apart,
What are we gonna do?
Crystal Murphy
12 April 1972
Or is it mine?
Is the feeling getting old,
After all this time?
Why does it seem you,
Don't want to try?
Why does it seem,
Our love's gonna die?
You're just waiting for
a certain time,
To shut my door,
Out of your life.
It seems all you want
is to have some fun,
I'm just hanging on
having none.
Of course Sweetheart,
I love to be with you . . .
But when we're apart,
What are we gonna do?
Crystal Murphy
12 April 1972
Why?
I don't understand why things should be this way,
My Heart will go on aching everyday.
My love for you will continue to grow,
But deep inside I'll never know.
Why we couldn't work out a way,
And always together, we could stay.
Our love has been wonderful and true,
And I'll never regret saying "I love you".
In all these months we've so sweetly shared,
You've proven to me how much you cared.
We've had so many good times, some were sad,
Yet I'm so thankful for those times we had.
My love for you will never die,
There will always be something deep inside.
I'll never understand it, but only God knows,
And I guess that's just "the way it goes".
Things didn't work the way we wanted them to,
But Honey, I don't regret saying "I Love You".
Crystal Murphy
22 February 1972
My Heart will go on aching everyday.
My love for you will continue to grow,
But deep inside I'll never know.
Why we couldn't work out a way,
And always together, we could stay.
Our love has been wonderful and true,
And I'll never regret saying "I love you".
In all these months we've so sweetly shared,
You've proven to me how much you cared.
We've had so many good times, some were sad,
Yet I'm so thankful for those times we had.
My love for you will never die,
There will always be something deep inside.
I'll never understand it, but only God knows,
And I guess that's just "the way it goes".
Things didn't work the way we wanted them to,
But Honey, I don't regret saying "I Love You".
Crystal Murphy
22 February 1972
(Untitled)
There's so much I'd like to say,
To you before you go.
Since you've decided you can't stay,
There are things I want you to know.
I want to say "I thank you",
For the many times we've shared.
I want you to know I love you,
And that I really care.
I couldn't write down everything,
That I'm thankful for -
I love you for the little things,
But Honey, there is more.
Crystal Murphy
February 1972
To you before you go.
Since you've decided you can't stay,
There are things I want you to know.
I want to say "I thank you",
For the many times we've shared.
I want you to know I love you,
And that I really care.
I couldn't write down everything,
That I'm thankful for -
I love you for the little things,
But Honey, there is more.
Crystal Murphy
February 1972
Dearest . . .
Day by day my Love for you grows stronger,
Night by night, my Heart grows fonder.
In these precious months I've shared with you,
You've given me more love than I ever knew.
But it's realizing I have to let you go,
That's so hard and it hurts me so.
No one else could make me feel this way,
And I really do want you to stay.
But when you leave, I'll think of you,
And the wonderful things we used to do.
Honey, I hope you feel the same,
Please remember the love that to us, came.
A few short months that's all we've got,
To share our love that's taught so much.
Can't you imagine how it's going to be?
We'll no longer have our love that's so sweet!
I'll go through the days so long and dreary,
And as the days go by, I'll grow weary.
Your loving face I'll no longer see,
And your strong arms will no longer hold me.
All these facts, are coming through,
Sweetheart, I can't stand it, I love you!
I'm so sorry if I'm causing you pain,
But don't you see - I can't change.
When the end comes and new paths we start,
I'll close all these things into my heart.
I'll keep them there as long as I live,
And go back to them time and again.
No matter what happens, I want you to know,
That' I'll never forget you wherever I go.
All My Love,
Crystal
Crystal Murphy
25 September 1971
Night by night, my Heart grows fonder.
In these precious months I've shared with you,
You've given me more love than I ever knew.
But it's realizing I have to let you go,
That's so hard and it hurts me so.
No one else could make me feel this way,
And I really do want you to stay.
But when you leave, I'll think of you,
And the wonderful things we used to do.
Honey, I hope you feel the same,
Please remember the love that to us, came.
A few short months that's all we've got,
To share our love that's taught so much.
Can't you imagine how it's going to be?
We'll no longer have our love that's so sweet!
I'll go through the days so long and dreary,
And as the days go by, I'll grow weary.
Your loving face I'll no longer see,
And your strong arms will no longer hold me.
All these facts, are coming through,
Sweetheart, I can't stand it, I love you!
I'm so sorry if I'm causing you pain,
But don't you see - I can't change.
When the end comes and new paths we start,
I'll close all these things into my heart.
I'll keep them there as long as I live,
And go back to them time and again.
No matter what happens, I want you to know,
That' I'll never forget you wherever I go.
All My Love,
Crystal
Crystal Murphy
25 September 1971
Friday, July 6, 2007
Help
"Sometimes, in our life, we all have pain, we all have sorrow . . . Lean on me, when you're not strong. I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on . . . " As reflected in my work, you will see that my life has been anything but stable. This piece shows the beginnings of turmoil in what otherwise should have been an ever-lasting, storybook romance. Our (mine and his) lives were so different regarding religion. Therefore, our parents were against it from the start. Our Mothers. My heart was torn between remaining where I was or transforming into something so outside myself . . .
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Darling, I don't know what to do,
For I know, I really love you.
With you, in your arms, is where
I want to stay.
But Honey, my heart is pulling
the other way.
I want to stay, but I'm so afraid,
That it just won't work out that way.
If one of us would only give in,
Then maybe our love would win.
But you see, we're so far apart,
In some ways, but not the heart.
Our love for each other is the same,
Our paths are what's different
. . . in ways.
I know that I should give you up,
But my love for you measures up.
I don't want to lose your love,
I could never get enough.
You deserve someone else,
Only I want you for myself.
I need you oh so very much,
Please don't take from me,
your love.
I need you and I want you so,
Sweetheart, you just don't know.
Please don't turn to someone else,
Stay with me and try to help.
Your path goes one way, mine the other.
It might do us good to find another.
You're so sweet, just like from above,
Why did we have to fall in love?
There will never be another to take
your place,
My mind will never forget your face.
Darling, if we really tried,
Maybe our love would never die.
I want to be the one in your heart,
Oh please, let's never part!
Love can conquer, if we make the
right move,
Let's stay together so that we can prove.
We've got to think of something to do,
For you love me, and I love you!
Crystal Murphy
28 October 1971
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Darling, I don't know what to do,
For I know, I really love you.
With you, in your arms, is where
I want to stay.
But Honey, my heart is pulling
the other way.
I want to stay, but I'm so afraid,
That it just won't work out that way.
If one of us would only give in,
Then maybe our love would win.
But you see, we're so far apart,
In some ways, but not the heart.
Our love for each other is the same,
Our paths are what's different
. . . in ways.
I know that I should give you up,
But my love for you measures up.
I don't want to lose your love,
I could never get enough.
You deserve someone else,
Only I want you for myself.
I need you oh so very much,
Please don't take from me,
your love.
I need you and I want you so,
Sweetheart, you just don't know.
Please don't turn to someone else,
Stay with me and try to help.
Your path goes one way, mine the other.
It might do us good to find another.
You're so sweet, just like from above,
Why did we have to fall in love?
There will never be another to take
your place,
My mind will never forget your face.
Darling, if we really tried,
Maybe our love would never die.
I want to be the one in your heart,
Oh please, let's never part!
Love can conquer, if we make the
right move,
Let's stay together so that we can prove.
We've got to think of something to do,
For you love me, and I love you!
Crystal Murphy
28 October 1971
I Wish
I wish that we were all alone,
Upon some moonlit shore.
With no one to disturb us,
About an hour or more.
We'd walk along hand in hand,
The breeze blowing our hair.
We'd be so full of happiness,
And full of love to share.
The sea would be whispering,
Wonderful words of love.
And the birds would be singing,
Sweet songs way up above.
Under our feet would be
The nice, soft sand.
Oh how happy the two of us would be,
Walking hand in hand.
In that hour or maybe more,
We would laugh and sing.
And look at all that our God made,
Birds, the sea, just everything.
It would be so nice to be,
Upon some moonlit shore.
To be thankful for each other,
In that hour or more.
Crystal Murphy
September 1971
Upon some moonlit shore.
With no one to disturb us,
About an hour or more.
We'd walk along hand in hand,
The breeze blowing our hair.
We'd be so full of happiness,
And full of love to share.
The sea would be whispering,
Wonderful words of love.
And the birds would be singing,
Sweet songs way up above.
Under our feet would be
The nice, soft sand.
Oh how happy the two of us would be,
Walking hand in hand.
In that hour or maybe more,
We would laugh and sing.
And look at all that our God made,
Birds, the sea, just everything.
It would be so nice to be,
Upon some moonlit shore.
To be thankful for each other,
In that hour or more.
Crystal Murphy
September 1971
You
You mean so everything to me.
When I'm with you, I'm so glad,
For the love that we share,
And the joy that we have.
My heart is so happy,
From the way that I feel.
You are so thoughtful,
And your love is so real.
You are so tender,
And your heart is sincere,
I love to be with you,
Because you are so dear.
When my hand is in yours,
And we're side by side,
My love for you,
I cannot hide.
I desire to be in your arms,
And feel your loving caress,
To have you hold me close to you,
Gives me happiness.
I'm thankful for the love we feel,
And because our love is true,
Sweetheart, I'm so thankful,
That I'm in love with you!
Crystal Murphy
25 September 1971
When I'm with you, I'm so glad,
For the love that we share,
And the joy that we have.
My heart is so happy,
From the way that I feel.
You are so thoughtful,
And your love is so real.
You are so tender,
And your heart is sincere,
I love to be with you,
Because you are so dear.
When my hand is in yours,
And we're side by side,
My love for you,
I cannot hide.
I desire to be in your arms,
And feel your loving caress,
To have you hold me close to you,
Gives me happiness.
I'm thankful for the love we feel,
And because our love is true,
Sweetheart, I'm so thankful,
That I'm in love with you!
Crystal Murphy
25 September 1971
Love
Love is something special,
Not something to toss around.
It's something that should be cherished,
To share with someone you've found.
Love is something to hold and keep,
That two people alone can share.
True love doesn't pass away,
If the two people really care.
Love is something so precious,
Between a girl and a boy.
It's something to think of as wonderful,
Love is just pure joy!
Cherish love, for it's so tender,
It's something to take pride in -
. . . and because your love is true,
You'll be thankful time and again.
Crystal Murphy
24 September 1971
Not something to toss around.
It's something that should be cherished,
To share with someone you've found.
Love is something to hold and keep,
That two people alone can share.
True love doesn't pass away,
If the two people really care.
Love is something so precious,
Between a girl and a boy.
It's something to think of as wonderful,
Love is just pure joy!
Cherish love, for it's so tender,
It's something to take pride in -
. . . and because your love is true,
You'll be thankful time and again.
Crystal Murphy
24 September 1971
That Someone
When you have someone to think about,
Someone your problems to share,
Someone that means so much to you,
He's the one for whom you care.
He's someone who's so precious,
Someone to whom you'll be true,
Someone that you want to hear say,
"Sweetheart, I love you."
When he's the only one that matters,
When there is no one else,
Soon you'll start thinking,
Of him, more than yourself.
When you have someone that means so much,
Someone you know will be true,
The words they'll come so easy,
"Sweetheart, I love you!"
Crystal Murphy
24 September 1971
Someone your problems to share,
Someone that means so much to you,
He's the one for whom you care.
He's someone who's so precious,
Someone to whom you'll be true,
Someone that you want to hear say,
"Sweetheart, I love you."
When he's the only one that matters,
When there is no one else,
Soon you'll start thinking,
Of him, more than yourself.
When you have someone that means so much,
Someone you know will be true,
The words they'll come so easy,
"Sweetheart, I love you!"
Crystal Murphy
24 September 1971
My Love
He is my love.
I shall not want anyone else.
He makes my heart overflow
with happiness. He restores the
sunshine in my life when the
day is dreary.
When I am alone, I will
not fear, for he will be
back to enlighten me.
My joy runneth over from
the love I feel from him.
Surely our love will last
all the days of our lives,
and I shall remain to love
him forever.
Crystal Murphy
21 September 1971
I shall not want anyone else.
He makes my heart overflow
with happiness. He restores the
sunshine in my life when the
day is dreary.
When I am alone, I will
not fear, for he will be
back to enlighten me.
My joy runneth over from
the love I feel from him.
Surely our love will last
all the days of our lives,
and I shall remain to love
him forever.
Crystal Murphy
21 September 1971
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